Past couple months now have been crazy for more reasons than I care to discuss and I’ve landed myself in quite a bind over the past couple days but that’s nothing surprising… if it wasn’t this bind it would have been another one in a few weeks, I suppose I like the risks involved.
Anyhow. Over the past couple months I’ve become more aware of my decisions then ever before and it’s starting to point out the things that really frustrate me at the core, about people. One thing that gets me… is “time” – I’ve grown tired of that cop-out. “I simply don’t have time”, unless you are on the go 24hrs of everyday, you’re simply making up an excuse instead of saying what it really is – “I simply don’t feel like it” – that’s what you should be saying. However, I assume most of you say you don’t have the time because you don’t want to hurt someones feelings but honestly, I think the truth will do a lot more for you. It really frustrates me when people don’t have the time for something simple… and by simple, I mean… SIMPLE – like takes 10 seconds of your day to do and would make all the difference type of simple. They give the excuse they don’t have time or they don’t think about it, when in reality I think they just don’t care as much as they should or they are being selfish and don’t realize the importance of it in regards to the other person. It’s a decision at the end of the day, you either do it or you don’t and whether you realize it or not – you still made a decision.
Lets put some thought into decisions for a second… seriously. Lets say that you have something you need to do this evening that is important but instead of getting it done, you watched tv most the night and then played on facebook for a few hours. Then the next morning you’re upset because you didn’t get it done… you’re a dumbass. It was your decision as to whether or not you were going to watch TV and your decision to play on facebook instead of doing what you should have done. I think you had in coming, maybe next time you should take responsibility for your actions as well as your obligations.
TV pisses me off – specifically because people waste so much time in front of one instead of doing other things that could actually improve their life, friendships, or relationships. If you watch TV for background noise while doing other things, then I understand more – because I like background noise as well while I do homework or even while I’m at work. I don’t like the silence, it allows me to be in my head – thinking and that is typically a bad idea. Yet, people who actively sit in front of a tv for hours on end just… watching tv shows… how in the hell does that improve your lifestyle? People bitch and moan about wanting better for themselves and their children – they’ll talk a big game and then at the end of the day, they’re stuck… watching tv on the couch. FFS.
I can’t say I’m completely innocent here, no one is – I personally don’t take all the initiative that I should at times because I’ve got other obligations or other things on my mind. My example of this is the LTD meetings as of lately, I haven’t been to a single one in a few weeks now simply because I’m so bogged down on homework and last week I was at the hospital. I realize that I’m not doing myself a favor when it comes to my business – I know that when it comes to my obligations with school, I made a good decision yet when it comes to my business – I made a bad one. Sadly life and the decisions in it can’t always be as white & black as we’d prefer them to be.
Lately I’ve come to terms with the fact that many of the people I consider friends, are not as genuine as I first thought. It’s an interesting development, people are fake, and many of them seem to have a hidden agenda which ends up with you being taken advantage of – yet another reason why people suck. It’s crazy because some of the most incredible people I have in my life, I’ve met from video games – more specifically, Lineage 2. Honestly, I think that’s the number 1 reason I go back to L2 so many times – I meet great people who are genuine and helpful. It’s great because the moment you meet people in L2 you already have something in common… so it helps you start a foundation for a friendship so quickly. I have friends all over the world that I’d love to visit and even though I’ve never actually met any of them yet, I trust them and I know they’re not serial rapist.
I was told today that if I don’t vote then I should move to Canada, that’s an interesting frame of logic. I do feel that if you don’t vote then you shouldn’t complain… to those that did vote, because they’ll bitch at you. haha. Me not voting is my own decision, yet everyone wants to pitch in as if it were theirs… it’s awesome. I’m sorry to tell you but I’m not political – I don’t care about politics, just like I don’t care about religion… honestly, what I’m going to eat for lunch is of a bigger concern to me. Even though that’s my prerogative people will still try to push their views and logic onto me as if it’s their decision and not mine. It reminds me of all the people who got pissed at me for getting a tattoo – oh, I’m sorry, is it on your body? It isn’t? I thought so. If you want to give me your opinion, that’s fine – I accept opinions and I also accept intellectual conversations, I don’t accept bullshit and pissy attitudes.
Speaking of tattoo’s… I want another one, I just don’t know what and I realized yesterday that it’s been about 1 year since I got my first tattoo! How awesome!
Oh and lastly… I got a fb msg yesterday about someone complaining that I’m vulgar or they don’t like some of the things I say. Thanks for the laugh, seriously. I’ll tell you what I tell everyone – you have 2 options…
1. Hide my post from fb
2. Delete me as a friend
Because I will not change for you or anyone else.
